anxiety is...

...waking up at 3:30 a.m. and not being able to go back to sleep.
...having too much on your plate without a big enough fork.
...the constant gnawing in your gut that sends your whole stomach churning with just a thought or two.
...termites in your soul.
...a cup that's overflowing, but not in the good "Jesus" sort of way.
...too many options and not enough decisions.
...all the lights on and everybody's home (including grandma, great aunt Charlotte, your neighbor's five screaming children, and your mother-in-law's brother Sal).
...a washing machine stuck on the spin cycle.
...ALWAYS thinking about the worst case scenario.
...an elephant sitting on your chest and people telling you "not to think about it and it will go away."
...feeling like a crazy person and wondering what other people would think if they could read your mind.
...stimulants mixed with steroids going on a "bad trip."
...poorly buttered toast.
...too much work and no play.
...always coloring inside the lines.
...an internal volcano full of molten lava.
...a permanent problem to temporary solutions.

Summer Bucket List Part IIII (Because I hate the real roman numeral for 4)

I think it has become a part of my Summer Bucket List tradition to put together my "to-dos" when the summer is already half way over.

And yet, I don't feel like my summer is complete unless I complete this crazy task. It's almost like a contract to myself that I'll get off my lazy ass and enjoy what has always been my favorite time of the year.

So, drumroll please...

This summer I plan to:

-Ingest a ridiculous amount of snow cones (especially now that we've identified the Snow Shack closest to our house)

-Go camping

-Take Miles swimming at the city pool(s) until he starts actually looking like a fish

-Hike to a waterfall

-Move into our new home (fingers crossed that this one goes as smoothly as possible!)

-Do at least a little bit of summer reading

-Campfire and s'mores

-Spend more time up at the cabin

-Start a workout routine with Brett

-Make as many trips to Zion (and the other National Parks) as the million degree weather down here will permit

-Finish organizing the photos on my computer (ok, so maybe this one is more like wishful thinking!)

-Roast our butts off in the Vegas heat at an outdoor July wedding

-Pre-order our copy of The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh on DVD

-Take a bubble bath all by myself and catch up on some reading

-Give Miles a haircut (if I can convince myself to part with his adorable curls!)

-Come up with a school plan for Brett

-Have a game night

-Birthday dinner at Cheesecake Factory (and maybe even Tucanos--I'm getting full just thinking about it...)

-Housewarming party!

-Teach Miles a legitimate word

-Try not to die of heatstroke

The End.